Deadbeat Dads

I'll tell you what, as much as I hate to admit it, I have some kind of sympathy for deadbeat dads. I know it sounds crazy especially considering what I've had to go through with my children and their father (He's still hiding like a scared little boy, by the way). Let's just say that I have some sympathy for their future. Because no matter what happens, no matter where they go or what they become they are going to have to face what they left behind at some point. It's kind of sad because eventhough they may make a better life for themselves and become better people, when the fact that they've abandoned their children come to fruition, their great life from that point on will be tainted. Possibly even destroyed. Why don't guys get that? They run and run and just when they think they've gotten away and that it's all smooth sailing.....BAM! It all comes flooding back. I have a relative that ran from child support for over 20 years. He thought that because his kids were all grown up that he was free and clear. Unfortunately he still had to pay retroactive child support that accrued over the years and ended up owing his ex a little over $80,000. Of course he didn't have it and was immediately put in jail for several years until she died. I feel sad for deadbeats because they are really just little scared, cowardly boys who don't have the balls to face responsibility with courage and integrity. One day they are going to grow up and that's usually when they get blindsided by the fact that they have completely cut themselves off from the lives of those who would have otherwise loved, adored and respected them unconditionally. Then again, it is their own fault, but it's just too bad that they don't see it that way until it's too late. It's so easy to make up excuses and lies to try and make yourself feel good and deceive others, but when you really think about it.........ARE YOU BEING TRUE TO YOURSELF? Do you really want to be that type of man? Another statistic? No matter what deadbeats do or say, they will always be known as a deadbeat as long as they run with fear and cowardice. Fear and cowardice because you lie to yourself and others. Fear and cowardice because you have proven that you are not capable of being a REAL man. Fear and cowardice because....well.....you're just a coward. Maybe I don't feel sorry for deadbeats, in fact, I honestly don't. I can't bring myself to feel sorry for people who are so selfish as to neglect some of the most precious and lovable beings on earth.....children. YOUR children.
In my own life, I find that I am extremely blessed. I have family and friends that helped me through so many hard times as a single mother. And now I have a man, not a boy, a man. He is everything that my children and I need in our lives. Not just financially, that's such a small part of the relationship that we share as a family. He is the father that my children need in their lives. He is the compassion, love and honesty that I needed in my life. Things that we could've had with my kids "sperm donor" if he would've had the mental capacity to entertain an intelligent thought that didn't involve selfishness and dishonesty.In the end I guess I really feel sorry for the single parents. The real parents who make it a point to make sure that their children always come first. Every deadbeat has excuses about why they are not around. Most of them usually claim that the custodial parents bother them too much or that they won't allow them to see their children. I just don't buy it. I will say this, and I think every parent will agree, there is no court, judge, city, state or government that will ever keep me from my children. I would comply with whatever I need to, accomplish whatever I need to accomplish in order to have the priviledge of being in my children's lives.Deadbeat dads are undeserving of anything more than a 7X10 room with bars and a roomate who treats you just like the little boy you really are. I don't feel sorry for you at all. What ever judgement comes upon you at your time of regret is the one you most certainly deserve.

Television sucks!

Television is so predictable now. Even if the storyline for a few episodes gets you on the edge of your seat, the show in general inevitably turns to crap. Especially dramas. CSI, Numbers, etc. It's almost like these writers can't find anything else to come up with in the storyline so they have to put in things like people hooking up with each other, drinking problems, you know personal stuff about the characters that I don't give two left butt cheeks about. Why? CSI has gotten completely ridiculous! It started off great...dead people, investigating crimes, examining evidence, lab rats. How can you go wrong with that?? Then came the personal stuff.....gambling problems, relationships, drinking problems...who cares?! Give me back the smart stuff! I don't care if Warrick has a gambling problem! If you're not going to fire him and take him off the show, it's irrelevant. Every smart drama is the same, they give you all the smart, interesting things in the beginning and then decide their going to try and shove some mediocre personal character issues down your throat. Please stop. For the love of God and all that is holy, just give me a good drama without all that personal, emotionally unstable sideshow crap. Just stick with the subject of he show. Crime Scene Investigation...I want dead bodies and evidence and lab rats and you just show me how and when this person died and who did it. That's it, that's all. Don't even get me started on Numbers. Two questions though, why is it relevant that a genius went into space and came back a complete spiritual enigma? And why should I care about who hooks up with who and who's brother needs a shrink?! It's called Numbers for goodness sake! NUMBERS! Give me the equations and formulas and solve the frikkin' crimes without some characters' lovelife horribly interfering.

Ok, enough of the primetime television talk. For a brief moment I would just like to make a comment regarding HBO's new series "John From Cincinnati". I just watched the season finale where, as they said in the previews, "all will be revealed". All I have to say is.....KILL ME NOW! Just get it over with.